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Monday, June 30, 2008
12:05:00 AM
sigh, things dun turn gd to me. esp when it comes to relationship. sigh. now. i really like this girl. but. she seems like. avoiding me. i dunno. i just hope not. sigh. i just want her to be the happiest girl, and not because of her past, that disallows her to have another guy who will treat her gd. i agree that i am not gd wif my words, but i really hope now that she wont sees me like her any other ex. i just wan to be different from all your ex. although i cant make and promises to you, but i am sure that i will make you the happiest girl. i wont neglect you and be by your side. sigh. for me to be alone, i really felt like dying. but upon thinking of wad has happened in the past, i chose not to think about that again. maybe all is fated. let me suffer for the process, and not to die without suffered from it. i guess. i really have to change myself. for the better. i know no matter wad i do, u still wont like me de. but, i am still clinging onto the small tiny hope that i wish you would suddenly turn back. how i wish u were the one. or, maybe i shld just leave this world, and end all sufferings, at least, ppl around me will forget me and forget wad i have caused them to make them angry about me or wadsoever. sigh. i really like you alot. i admit i do not like someone as much as you, and i wont let time come between us. because to me, its the feeling that matters for the both of us. i guess i shall end it here. anyone reading this. i hope this post is just a passer-by to you and wont affect you so much. because, there is so much things in my mind, and too much are left unsaid. and i am too sad to continue to blog le. i came to blog just awhile cause my heart cant stand any longer. i am so afraid that i will have a heart attack soon. sigh. maybe it shld happen to me and all ends it well at here. all these are just 1% of wad i am trying to say....miracles wont happen again. it wont. sigh. i just wan to sleep and nvr to wake up again. to die peacefully. sigh.
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