ARGH!...its so HEARTBREAKING!!!!!!!!!
sigh....she doesnt know that i have a blog, and she doesnt know my feelings now.right now,i am just feeling very sad,its kindof even more sad that that period of time that i like mh.sigh..on the surface,she may thinks that i am alright with it, but i just dunwan her because of me feeling sad after she had the courage to tell me the real thing.SIGH.maybe its fate.all is predestined.and i really have nothing to say.i am starting to lose my friends one by one,and now i even lose the person whom i really lvoe the most.SIGH.dunno when den i will lose myself from this earth.SIGH.really dunwan to repeat history anymore.but temptations keep coming into my mind.and its very hard to cast those thoughts aside.

no one knows what i am feeling right now.only you the person who is reading this right now will know wad i feel.SIGH.but i beg you that if you read le,please dun tell anyone about it.SIGH.its best that you keep it to yourself, and let this pass by you.SIGH.what if.i really repeating the history?SIGH.but it has caused such a big happening to those people around me.SIGH.i am not as fortunate as my friends.they have their own girlfriend/boyfriend.and i am the only one who is lonely.SIGH.no words can describe how i feeling now.SAD.HEARTBREAKING.EMO.SUICIDAL.

these words made me feel like i am starting to escalating in my mood.SIGH.its getting worse now.no medicine can cure me.even time cant heal the wound that is too deep for anyone to think.SIGH.the misery is just so empty.



U GONNA MISS ME WHEN I AM GONEEEEE...........WHEN I AM GONEEEEEE........WHEN I SAY GOODBYE,GONNA LEAVE A HOLE BEHIND ME.....I GUESS ITS UP TO YOU....ITS WONT COME BACK TO THE PAST WHEN IT USED TO BE.....