now its o level period...and yet i am coming back to blog...because...recently...some things just happen to me...
i am back to an emo person...its like...sigh... i feel very depressed...its totally the same feeling of what i felt at *that period of time*...sigh...but i promise alot ppl tt i wont repeat the history...although the thought keeping coming into my mind..and i tried all ways to cast that thought away. and yet...its still holding on to me..sigh..
when alot of ppl told me that she had went back together as couple...i didnt quite believe it...but..when i ask her best friend...she told me its true..and at the moment of time..my heart shattered in bits and pieces, and it cant be fixed back by anything or what soever..i just..cried that night.i cant take it la. no one knows.but i know its o level period.i shoulnt think of such things now. but i just cant. whenever i am nt doing anything,that thought would just come back every minute and every seconds. especially when tt night,once i started to lie on the bed, i cant shake that thought off. it has become a scar in me. and i know no matter wad...even how hard i change myself, to be a better person, no one will still take notice me..i tried all ways to change myself. but i feel that ppl just..think tt i am juz another normal person. although i told her clearly tt i wan to be friends wif her now.its true.. but she just wont give both of us a chance. i know i have many bad points, and not a single good point, thats why maybe this is the main reason which i am still single, and did not have and girlfriends before.all my friends went throught it.they were able to have requited love. but i am only the odd one out.which everytime the love i gave would be a unrequited one. i just feel so desolated and dejected. even i think 'EMO" this word cant even describe me fully...
i just cant accept the fact..the blow to me is too big..and the truth is too harsh..but..its reality.maybe i am really a one loser guy on earth.i seriously think that i would remain a bachelor forever in my life.maybe thats God that wants me to live in this kind of way.
but i really not contented of the way i am living my life. i just feel like. forget it..i just dun wanna sae...its just too sensitive.**sigh**


I never felt nothing in the world like this beforeNow I'm missing you& I'm wishing that you would come back through my doorWhy did you have to go? You could have let me knowSo now I'm all alone,Girl you could have stayedbut you wouldn't give me a chanceWith you not around it's a little bit more then I can standAnd all my tears they keep running down my faceWhy did you turn away?


So baby I will wait for youCause I don't know what else I can doDon't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what I have to do I'll wait for you


It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)You got me feeling crazy (crazy)How can you walk away,Everything stays the sameI just can't do it babyWhat will it take to make you come backGirl I told you what it is & it just ain't like thatWhy can't you look at me, your still in love with meDon't leave me crying.


Baby why can't we just start over againGet it back to the way it wasIf you give me a chance I can love you rightBut your telling me it wont be enough


Baby I will wait for youBaby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing I do