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Sunday, January 07, 2007
10:27:00 AM
Wow! year 2006 has already been a past to everyone...i really didnt expect time to fly so fast...not even a blink of an eye...but...am i a past to everyone too?hmm...i really dunno wad to have for my new year resolution...but i really can see the growth of yhope dunman in this harvest...i believe i can do it...and i shall fear no rejections... hmm...although i face rejections is equal to the amount of time i sigh...hais... its really more than wad i could never expect...from her...from friends and also from people that i evax... but...wad i really learn from the camp is that i muz really stand firm in my decision and everything.. and so that i ask everything in his name and i would be given.. i really want to grow more spiritually... and also mentally.. and.. this year is really a crucial year for me... so many of my friends has already taken their O level subjects.. and they were all rejoicing now...although they still haven get their results.. but i really believe them that they will get goo results and eventually will also use their glorify God.. i believe in breakthrough... because of breakthrough 1000! i really can believe it man! this breakthrough 1000 really impacted my life a lot and this has also made me want to grow more in christ-likeness and also to fufill the great commission that God has given us... i believe everyone can do it... hmm... these few days i really very sad bah...except for yesterday...because she got online... then i send her songs as well as help her do her blogskin...although it is my first time doing it for anyone..but i actally succeed.. because i really rely on God and trusted God that everything i do and everything that i believe... will She? i dunno... its her decision and i really hope she can really sae yes one day.. i know in secondary school life..she will not make a decision...but can I really last long for her? sometimes i see her...i really dunno wad to sae...because i dun fully understand her yet..and i really wan to care for her and everything...although i know she of alot of problems but she dun wan to tell me...i also cant do anything...and i really respect her... wad i promise her i will never break it..NEVER!! i believe if she really want to tell me...she will tell me by herself..right? i just have to slowly gain her trust and really hope that she can really feel that i realy care for her..really concern her alot..sometimes i just think i am not that good enough for her...just to care for her all these...because.. i really think wad i did is wad a normal friend would do...i really hope she would one day come and accept me...i tell you...if that day really comes...i really really dunno how to handle and react to it...i believe that the day WILL come...is just a matter of time... i really hope that i can really pass this year well and get really good result...as well as some of my friends can come and know christ and cross the line of faith.. sometimes i also think that i am too good for her..maybe she really need some time to be quiet from my sms...because wad i did for her...i would never harm her...and my shoulders are 24/7 ready for her to lean on...its just that whether she wants anot...but i think she would rather go to her shepherd or her sheepmate...but i believe she will also grow alot in all her problems... sometimes i just easy for me to know...but i chose to respecther decision and her trust...i feel so happy when she trusted me.. i believe...really...i really have to increase my faith a thousand times...i believe God will help me...as well as my caregroup members too...they are a bunch of people whom i really loves hanging out with...this eyar 2007...ED1 shall not be stagnant and shall break 50 and hit unit size... because once you believe it...it will surely come to past..hais...but today i just cant take it la...hais..she never reply my smses...but i believe that she is busy..thats why...and not that she is trying to avoid me...hmm...i shall end here bah...maybe laer at night or tmr then i blog again...hmm... alot f homework and test are coming on the way.. all charging towards me.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hais.. never mind la.. GET USED TO IT CAN LE.