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Sunday, December 31, 2006
9:45:00 AM
WHOA!!!its really so long that i didnt blog le...hais...i really want to sae alot of things...firstly...school is starting soon and i really haven start revising my work...haven study for my amaths test and as well as finish my homework...yah...den the worst thing is...school books haven buy lahs...hais...den during 26 dec to 28 dec...my whole day was like?i really not used to it...i really can sense my xin ku...hais..but no one will knows..i know God knows how i am feeling at that moment of time..but i really feel like i really dun exist in the world liao?hais...but at least...for the better...i managed to sms on the 28 dec..but not all the sms was replied back la...hais...i also feel very sad and disappointed...but can i?i still have to smile in front of others to show that i am really fine?then friday..its was brother night...ya...initially nigel came my home...den after i bath and everything le...we den go eat prata...haha...den we wanted go 7-eleven go buy alcholic drink but 3am to 6 am cant buy...but before tht we sort of disturb jol under her hse la...hahax..think she is frustrated lo...hahax...den we walked from my school the side gate there the 7-eleven to rc...den the time was around 4 plus...den i had to sleep..if not the service i would sleep..some more i got mm and need to reach nexus at 9.30...but i woke up at 9.06..den i knew i was late la..den i told jiayi i would reach at 10am..den i rush home to bath...den after that i go fr nexus...but i reach there at 10.40am...haiz....she was very angry la...because friday the mm retreat i didnt go..but se mentioned that thosepeople that was going were all late..den somemore mm practise everyone was late la...hais..i think we really need a breakthrough in our punctuality....den i did lyrics,hostings and sermon for both the services lo...hahax..yah...tough is quite tiring lo...but i manage to make juz a few mistake...fr both services..thnk got less den 10 bahz...ya...just started lyrics nt long ago...but i really want to perfect it...den after i am good in media already..i would then move on to lights...den sound...hahax...its still a long way for me..but everything as just started only... hmm...i really want to become a team leader la...although i know its not easy...but i really want to become one..to serve and lead the ppl in the ministry for God to greater heights.....den after service...go le meridien and eat..den after that we had to go for the harvestor celebration at 8pm..yahz..and i am eally glad that we had breakthrough 1000! it has already come to past.amen!..hmm.. i am also amazed that the northeast...or northwest got 56 converts...siao la..hahax...but at least for God..hmm..den after the celebration...we all went home...ya..den on the train...supposingly nigel sae tt we had order tao huey from jol and yy...den we two go home first..den after tt i wait for his call den we go out together lo..bu i reach home le..bath le den i go sleep le...hais...den i think jol and nigel call me like 10 over times lo...hais...i really sorry yy and jol...cause you two had to come all the way here at my hse void deck to give me the food and yet the food is still not delivered yet....hais...really feel very guilty leh...but at least to me they were very good sisters to me...thank God for placing them into my life...den i wake up....hahax...and i am now here blogging lo......and en after that at 2pm still have to work...den cynthia working at 6pm...huijuan and liling work at 7pm...hahax...but we be working at esplanade la...haha...think i am able to see so many yhope there..because my cg ppl are going wif the ed2 and ed3 guys...den i hink more is still going...hahax...i think there will be more to come...den think my friend celebrating birthday also at marina bay..den they be counting down at esplanade la...think so..nt sure..hais...she really didnt know how xinku i am now...at least my only hope is that we could retur to the time where we could sms each other,,,yahz...but now...is like she didnt reply all m sms and were juz giving me 1 reply per day la..you know howit is so pathetic?i really felt like crying everytime...but....do i have a choice...?i cant..my only way is that i could only tell God and cry out to God..but yet i still cant do anything about it...the thing is not simple...its imply just too compicated...hais...i really like the song...right here waiting for you...i really start to believe more in this song...hais...God..i really want to go back to the times where i can sms and smile at the same time.hais...i am really discouraged and down now..please help me God..if i were to make my whole life to be very happy...i really dont mind living on earth shorter life...because to me..i think its worth it la..hais...you are too good to be true...i be there for you no matter what happens...but when then the time can come?WHEN??hais......